Hidden Secret

I hate meeting new people.

It's an honest fear of mine.

Being in a crowd of people and not knowing a single one of them, 

and yet knowing that I'm going to have to eventually get to know each of them.  

If only I could avoid all of them as though I was shopping at the store and they were just pass-me-by's

...but they aren't

...and I cant. 

 I dont know if anyone else ever feels this way.

when moving into a new home, starting a new job, getting new roommates, or in my case - the first day of school.

Yesterday was that day.. the first day of back-to-school.  

...So much anxiety those first few minutes before walking into that new classroom, 

secretly glancing at everyone around me and quickly realizing that: because it's a part-time program, most of the other students are older, some just by a decade, others with children my age, and all of whom are well into their careers. So, right from the start, the anxiety starts to thicken as I feel a little awkward and out of place...being one of two who stays home for a living. ;) 

So now I'm sitting here asking myself -

" Becky, what were you thinking..? Just pick up your bag, and don't look back." LOL

Just as I began to second guess myself, this teddy-bear of a man next to me turned and said 

"Hi, I'm Eric...I know it's really early and this is going to be a long day so I brought snacks..and lots of them.  Here...have a bagel, you look hungry. And just in case you were wondering, if you hear a sqeaking noise, I promise I'm not fart...it's the chair." 

LOL 

okay, so writing it out and reading it makes my story a little lame, 

but if only you were there...I couln't help but laugh at such an introduction.

And that was the beginning of many great intro's 

My cohort is SO wonderful,

Each one of them so warmhearted and eager to know and learn fromeach other.

 And the professors, I honestly dont know where to begin. 

I have two professors, both of which bring a smile to my face just thinking about them.  

So full of warm energy and bright faces, ready and truly eager to help us...

not just to pass the courses, but to really understand and become part of the field.

The head of the department reminds me SO much of my grandma -

full of happiness and excitement and so stinkin adorable!!

I hope you havent read this far...and if you have, I'm sorry I really have no point to this blog other than me babbling on about my "little girl" excitements!!

In the end and I guess my whole purpose of this is to say:

I am so proud to be a part of this program.

  I find myself secretly counting down the days until next Monday, 

where I will spend almost 13 hours with school and truly enjoy every moment of it.